Not ready.....
So pretty much alot sucks right now. I got another speeding ticket ($195), my hours at work suck ass right now and, yes, me and 'A' started officially dating and broke up 20 days later. I'm sick of him and writing about him and complaining I'll never talk to him again.. This time tho (I know I've said this b4) it's over. He finally gave me a solid answer for a change bout anything. I asked him if he still wanted to be with me and he said. "I dunno" then we talked some more and and I said "so I guess this is over" he said "I guess so.." I said, "No more guess so's and I dunno's 'A' a real answer and truth if u care anything for me... is this over?" He said "yes." This first he ever says yes to me and look what its for haha. I'm bothered tho bc I want answers to certain stuff and I dont feel like I'll get them. I feel like I can let go and be angry at the stuff I should be if I can get the answers. This happened Tuesday and today was the first day I talked to him since then... he made me mad acting like nothing has happened. I want to get together with him to try to get my answers but I dunno if that'll happen... Anyways heres hoping to a good summer with a lousy start... This Dixie chick song pretty much sums up my feelings right now...I'm Not Ready To Make Nice - DIxie Chicks
Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting
I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price,
and i'll keep payingI'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have timeTo go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I shouldI know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like itI made by bed,
and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over
I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I shouldI'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should
Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting
posted by sleeplessly_single @ 2:56 PM
